But I dont want an abortion.. its heartbreaking ? The baby has been name Baby Amanda Marie, for the name Amanda means "she who ought to be loved." I just found out I am pregnant at 42. I have been sleeping with a guy unprotected for a year now last month I got pregnant and I had a miscarriage I never told him because we are not together. I regret my decision so much and cannot put it into words. Having an abortion allowed me to live my life and fulfil my dreams but I did become depressed over it and the stigma of having one can be really hurt you. I just turned 21,everyone wants me to keep the baby and I want to be a mom but I dont at the same time. I know her from my dreams. However he didnt. How are you coping? My bf convinced me we werent ready. All the best. Children cannot eat love and so please think about your financial situation. Exactly a month later I find out Im pregnant again. However, reading this, even though it did make me cry, also made me realize I could look at this moment as something to grow from and not just bury it away as a bad memory. My daughter knows that Im pregnant and its a very stressful and uncomfortable situation. Some in the anti-abortion movement use the song, or . Share Your Story Here. He told me to decide between him and the baby and he would leave. In 1971 a Catholic woman who wrote this letter had an abortion in New York. When you make this list of pros and cons, I think it will help you understand the reality. I want the baby, and he says not yet. He just doesnt want another child, but what about me & what I want? It uses medicine or surgery to remove the embryo or fetus and placenta from the uterus. You were there, so was my existence. Youre still with me, and Im grateful for that too. I am with someone now and he is lovely. Since I found out I was pregnant my life has been a living hell my husband immediately voiced we couldnt handle this right now, and though I was emotional about it at first, I knew he was right. He had a vasectomy and yet I ended up pregnant again. But why was this pregnancy right now? I prayed on it and as days went on my baby grew inside me but my symptoms from the pregnancy and the disease increased. Now, faced with having one in our early 40s is terrifying. Each day, I will continually honor you and thank you for making the sacrifice so I could become a head teacher and get my Masters degree; so your dad could take the steps he needed to stop drinking. I look for my child for twenty years but I was never able to get pregnant again . I was 5 weeks pregnant. I know this choice that I am making will be the hardest but I know in the long run, I will be saving my child from being born into a dysfunction environment I at least owe my child that. Dont worry though youre not pregnant!. Just like our loved ones that preceded us. In my heart i know that baby would have deserved better, but is it ok to feel THat way? I wish this was easier. There was no internet to look up information, and she didn't know about pregnancy . According to a webpage shared online by Crump, she has raised over $30,000 by Friday morning and will seek abortion care in North Carolina. Everything in life was so uncertain and I had nothing and had no idea where I was going and a part of me felt pressure from everyone else. They told me to think about what I wanted to do and that theyd support me regardless of my choice. I had severe preeclampsia and had to do c-section at week 28. We sit in silence for a little while, then I ask him to sit next to me, and he does, all the while looking surprised. I love this man but i dont want a baby now and i feel the worst human being in this world for thinking that way. Cate, I cried every day leading up to me making a decision, and I set the appointment for the very next day after I decided so that I would not have much time to change my mind. I think when we choose to do something like that we are so confused. Gone are the days when the wind would touch my face, gone are the days when youre the wind. ? Im 21, and I was 7 weeks pregnant last week but decided to terminate, after much deliberation. I felt a sense of love and attachment to the baby I knew I had to let go. Sometimes I think about taking my life and then I think about my daughter . A woman claiming to be pregnant has written an open letter to the "Little Thing" she'll never meet. I have never replied to something like this online before but what you said sounded so similar to a situation I was in last year that I feel I need to tell you youre not alone. Ive always had irregular periods and issues. In her 2021 memoir, Teresa Leet shares her experiences in both having an abortion and placing her baby for adoption.While the abortion caused her years of emotional trauma, she has no regrets about choosing adoption.. A lack of knowledge about abortion. I dont have the financial capability to take care of a child. He wants me to get an abortion, but I just dont think I can do it. A heart touching letter from a unborn baby to his mother baby is very happy when he is conceived and think that his mother is world's best mom and he share his happiness with his mother telling her all his activities and growing stages in her tummy but his parents decide to abort this baby.. prayatn Follow Advertisement Advertisement Recommended I sat on the toilet and watched as my destiny-deciding urine diluted with water, coffee, and last nights wine crept across the screen. Im a working fulltime mom Ive always been morally against abortions Ive always advocated against them and here I am having to contemplate one. ??. However I was with a married man who did not want this and it was an accident. I cry. I didnt want to do this. Thank you so much for writing posting this just hope and pray that one day I will get a chance to be a mom again. She has told me she regrets her choice to abort the fetus, she has said that many times now. Then I found out I was pregnant! Its not being selfish if you think about it deeper. My and my husband have been diagnosed with infertility. I had not passed my probation period and I wanted to prove myself, to be as good as I could be. It cant be easy and its hurtful for the man youre suppose to be with to embed abortion in your head after telling you, you two could try again. Starving, I told him. Hi there reading this story made me cry so bad At 18 weeks, April and her husband found out that their baby had lethal skeletal dysplasia. All Ive ever wanted is to me a mom. Im very open about discussing this, but its been difficult. God bless . I really can not explain how happy I am to know that you'll be my mom, another thing I also proud is to see the love with which I was conceived It seems that I will be the happiest kid! The 20-week ban adds another hurdle. I miss my baby constantly. Everyone at work keeps getting pregnant and every time I hurt. It was beautiful. I begged mi amor to reconsider, I proposed to her 3 days before she had the abortion. Id like to represent other womans stories not only my own, does anyone have any advice or an opinion on the matter? I now have learnt something new about myself i will absolutely love to be a mother one day. Again, I sleep in the same room as your dad that night, and when my alarm goes off, I get ready to take the bus to work. Im sure it goes without saying from reading about my childhood but I have mental health issues and Im not sure having a child of my own is something I will ever be mentally ready for, but I certainly wasnt then. I cant imagine what I would have done if I wasnt able to have an abortion. I was 6 weeks when I went for an ultrasound .. and all I saw was a small blob that I referred to as my nugget. Hi Kenz. Then I went into early menopause at 34 and never had kids. The first question the nurse asks is, What was the first day of your last period?, and I burst into tears. I didnt know you, but I loved you. I was asked to write this poem by a friend whose niece was distraught because she was pregnant and was addicted to drugs. But the six-week deadline contrasts starkly with early American abortion law, where the procedure was legal until "quickening"the first time a mother feels the baby kick, which can happen . I walked back to the preschool where I work with ten minutes to spare and decided, Ill just do it now. No matter how he was conceived this baby wasnt a mistake not to me. "Everything about a later termination is already so incredibly difficult even just picking up the phone to make the appointment. We use protection and still Ive ended up pregnant once more. So afraid. I was wondering how you are feeling. Thank you for this I hope one day Ill find a way to be okay, I really feel stupid and sad Im pregnant and everyone doesnt support my relation ship.i now want to abort and sadly get over my man. Thanks for this wonderful piece. I'll do my very best to be good. But I begged her not to go, I pleaded at times crying on the phone. Her due date has passed now. I dont know what to do, I know exactly how you feel . it didnt take him long to move past but its something I struggle with frequently in the form of nightmares and guilt. Im absolutely terrified of both scenarios and have been crocodile tearing constantly. He abandoned me and hung up on me when I told him a few weeks ago. All other content on this website is Copyright 2006-2023 FFP Inc. All rights reserved. Im currently in the exact situation. Listen to your heart, there is no wrong choice. Im maybe 3-5 weeks pregnant but already feel attached. Abortion - Pro Life - Letter From an Unborn Child Letter from an unborn child As falling rain is the tears of God for the blood spilled of the unborn children that covers the hands of the human race. Hi Mikal, I understand how torn you feel. As a pro-life advocate, I've written and submitted many articles pertaining to abortion to our local newspaper. Im booked in for abortion on Thursday, Im already a single mum to two kids. More than I want good . Me too, yesterday I found out I was 8 weeks pregnant and my boyfriend also doesnt want to keep it. My partner abandoned me and I had no money. But I cant help but feel a deep sense of loss and regret over ending the pregnancy. Rapid thoughts flooded my brain. I knew that if I went in for an ultrasound and saw features on that monitor.. there was no way I could go through with it. Top human rights organizations are calling on the United Nations to intervene over the destruction of abortion rights in the US.. At first, he was kind of a jerk, but eventually conceded to drive two hours back to San Francisco even though I had just sent him away that morning. Have a good day. Im not mad at you anymore. I am thinking of you xx. Well, I made it out alive. I wasnt going to tell him until I was so far along I could not abort but that sounds crazy. I am sad because I already have a connection with the child in my belly and I cry everyday thinking about the fact that I wont be able to hold him or her or see their face. It will be 8 years since my abortion in July and I still think about it every day. I had abortion almost 4 years ago and it still affects me greatly. I dont think Im going to miscarry the baby at all this time I stopped bleeding. Now she feels she let her self and everyone else down. I just had an abortion a couple days ago and I was 7 weeks. At times I couldnt walk, couldnt eat, loss 9 pounds in one week, shortness of breath and felt like I was having a heart attack. After I check in, I have to take another urine test. Wow I needed to read this. But tbh, by that point in our unhealthy relationship I had enough resentments of my own towards him to really care much. You may wonder why I say she.. I had one 7 years ago and my one and only. 30 years old , Im pregnant now. Even if you have others support around you, it can so easily feel like youre going through it alone. I remember my boyfriend and I sitting in the car one evening and wondering aloud what it would look like- would it have my eyes, or his nose? I miss my baby every minute of every day. Im so confused. She is with you in your dreams at least. Seven months latter she wrote this letter to a priest. I feel my baby moving around and he doesnt understand what Im going through. She tells me, You dont have to do this. But heres the problem, my husband and I are happily married. Know the Issues. Im a mother to 5 boys.. 2 from my previous marriage that I share 50/50 custody of and 3 littles that are with me 24/7. The first line showed up dark pink as it always did, and then, suddenly, a faint second pink line emerged. it really makes my decision i made 10 months ago seem like the right one. I never talked to people about it after. So we did. God bless you. My advice to you would be do it if YOU want to, dont let nobody not your parents or partner tell you what to do, take some time and think about it because it is a situation that stays with you forever. My blood is one part plasma and two parts pinot noir. She felt because of the drugs it was best to have an abortion. Im 33. I am with someone who I cant bring myself to tell and I am starting to feel emotionally and mentally effected by it. I know it was the right decision but I regret every moment of it even to this day. I love him he doesnt exactly feel the same, as per the way our relationship has gone these last few Years which caused it to end.